I've had such a blogging block this week. There have been a number of posts spinning around in my head, but then I think too much about them and decide that no one wants to read my dull rambling about my latest soft toy (that would be Winona. She's above), Audrey's slow-moving quilt, my thoughts about where to go next with my little crafty business or even the daily rollercoaster ride that is life with a toddler. There's a lot of self-editing going on around here. Possibly too much? I don't know... I'm just not sure that this has been the truest reflection of me lately.
So here's the dull rambling bit. There's been some talk on a few of my favourite blogs lately about feeling overwhelmed and short of time, and I can really, totally relate to so many of those thoughts. I know you've heard it all before and I know I'm not alone feeling stretched for time on a daily basis, always searching for that elusive 'life balance' (Does such a thing even exist? I doubt it!)
I work from home two days a week. Audrey spends a day at a great community child care centre on one of those days and the other day she spends with my Mum. My 'work' is supposed to be freelance graphic design, but more and more of that time seems to be occupied with making toys. Which is wonderful, and so much fun, but probably not exactly the most productive way, financially, I can help the family coffers. Still trying to work that one out. Even though I have this time, most days I struggle to respond to emails, keep on top of my little business (if you can even call it that), try to be a good and present parent ('try' is the operative word here), and make sure the house is in some vague semblance of order (terribly unsuccessful on that front, our living room rug seems to be perpetually under a layer of biscuit crumbs, cat-hair and sand from the sand pit!)
There are so many conversations happening all over blog-land that I'd love to be part of but there are simply not enough hours in the day. There are so many wonderful (wonderful!) people I have 'met' through having this blog, like-minded souls who I wish I could sit and have a cup of tea/beer and a good chat with. There are so many thoughtful and kind comments left here that I am so thankful for - and that I wish I had the time to respond to properly. Or at all.
I'm not complaining. I'm grateful for my life. Just feeling a little stretched right now. And like I'd like to give more to this community that has given me so much, but I'm not sure where I could possibly begin.
Anyway, that's where I'm at. If you've read to here, I salute you! Thankyou for listening. :)